Memory: Building Materials for a Story

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Like most writers of fiction, I have struggled with that old chestnut: Write what you know. For one thing, much of what I know as a former prosecutor has been done to death. Even Law and Order has to rip plots from the headlines. Beyond that, to write what you know means to expose yourself, to dig deep, to remember things that happened, things you did, and to relive those feelings. That’s not always comfortable.

In a post on Writer Unboxed, author Robin LaFevers noted that “[a]s writers, we are utterly exposed the moment we put pen to paper.” She goes on to say that “even when we don’t intend to put parts of ourselves into our books, … pieces of ourselves still find their way onto the pages.”

Robin’s post got me to thinking about an essay I recently discovered in the Atlantic  by author Bret Anthony Johnston who said he counsels his writing students, to their dismay: Don’t Write What You Know. And in the essay, he provided me a new way of looking at writing about something we’ve experienced. He said that he doesn’t try to recreate events in his past when he writes but, instead, he uses small details to evoke a time and place. As he wrote, “Instead of thinking of my experiences as structures I wanted to erect in fiction, I started conceiving of them as the scaffolding that would be torn down once the work was complete.” That makes sense to me. Instead of writing about one’s past experiences, a writer can evoke details, memories, sense impressions from his past and then let imagination take flight.

Or as Bret put it: “Trust your powers of empathy and invention, I say.”

That notion freed me to write a story I thought I’d never write – because it’s scary, y’know? – a story I’m hoping to publish. It’s about a high school student in the 1950s who gets polio and how the narrator, a boy who has a crush on her, reacts to her disability. I had polio in the ’50s but the story is not about me. The character was a senior in high school when she was stricken. I was about to start kindergarten. She lost the use of her legs. I didn’t. But I was able to remember a lot of my feelings about polio as I grew older, my concerns and my fears, and this allowed me to create this character. In telling the story from the viewpoint of a boy who loved her, an older narrator looking back, I imagined how these events shaped his life in later years. It was thrilling to me to use bits and pieces of memory as scaffolding for a story borne of imagination.

Anyway, the story is out there. I’ll let you know if it gets picked up.

 

 

My New Year’s Resolutions

I’ve always had a love/hate relationship with New Year’s resolutions and haven’t made any in recent years. When I have made them, I’ve seldom kept them and, in fact, have often forgotten what they were. But this year I’m trying again. 2012 was 2013 calendara good year in many ways but difficult in others. In March we lost a dear friend to a heart attack, a loss that broke many hearts. At the end of October, we lost many possessions and incurred damage to the lower level of our home due to Hurricane Sandy.

So I cannot help reevaluating my life or at least the determination with which I pursue my objectives. As a result, here I am making New Year’s resolutions. If you are reading this post, I thank you, although I cannot imagine why anyone would be interested in my resolutions. I am posting them in an effort to keep myself accountable. Here goes:

Write every day. I want to work every single day on my novel in progress, a story I’m working on, or a blog post.

Submit, submit, submit. I have stories I want to finish and get out into the world. Can’t let fear of rejection hold me back.

Blog more regularly. I’d like to post once a week but will try to post at least every other week.

Exercise daily. Go to the gym at least 3 or 4 days a week. If I lose this pace, do yoga at home. I want to keep up with my strength training. This isn’t about losing weight, although that would be nice. It’s about health and aging gracefully and staying strong.

Declutter my home, one drawer, one shelf, one closet at a time. We were literally forced to get rid of mountains of possessions, soaked or destroyed by the ocean surge that entered our home. But the purging effect felt great and I want to spend some time each day cleaning out a drawer or a shelf or a closet. I’ll give stuff away, especially clothes, to organizations that will distribute them to those in need. I want to keep only what I really wear, only what we really need. I want to simplify my life.

Be kind to someone every day. If I can give lift someone’s spirits or help them out in some way, I want to do that. Every day.

Be grateful every day. This one is easy because I am.

So it’s the first day of 2013 and I am ready for the new year. A year of love and friendship and reading good books and accomplishing my goals. If you have ideas to help me stick to my rezzes, would love to hear them. Happy New Year!

 

Recent Blog Posts That Inspire The Writer In Me

We writers all have those days when we wonder if what we’re writing is any good. I once thought that such huge, dark doubts

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only descended on newer, unpublished writers like me. But three blog posts that I read in the past week remind me that we all have doubts. Better yet, those posts have inspired me to keep going. You may want to read these posts, bookmark them, print them out, and have them on hand for days when you’ll need them.

This post struck a nerve. In it, Steven Pressfield discusses why he hates to talk about projects he’s working on and how recently, when he made an exception, the reaction of listeners was “snooze-o-rama.” I know that feeling. I have answered the question, What is your novel about?, and gotten an “oh (sorry I asked)” type of response. Well, Pressfield explains why a negative response does not make him consider giving up on the project and how he engages in self-reinforcement. I love what he says, basically that no one else has your idea and no one else can imagine how to carry it off.

Seeing a theme here? In this post, Jody Hedlund describes moments of self-doubt about her writing. She concludes that nothing pushes her to a high level of good work as much as discouragement does.

In this post, Rachelle Gardner reminds us that there are times when we need to take a break. She lives near Colorado Springs and her firefighter husband has been on the front lines of the devastating fires in that region. She discusses how humbling it is, but how necessary at times, to realize that you have limits.

My name in lights! (I mean in print)

This week, I wrote a guest post for Beyond the Margins entitled How Writing the Query Letter Helped Me Finish the Novel.

And The Rusty Nail published Rose Tattoo, a tiny excerpt from my novel in progress.

What inspires you to keep writing when the doubts settle in? Would love to hear from you!

What Movie, What Blog Inspired Me This Week?

There is a reason I named this blog “Book Ends and Odds.” Sometimes I will just post random odds and ends: about movies, books, blog posts, life, things that make me think. Here we go….

The Tree of Life

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It rained all day yesterday so I made popcorn and watched “The Tree of Life.” This is a movie that critics either rhapsodized about or hated.

The subject matter is compelling: the day-to-day life of a family in the 1950s, the death of a son, another son’s attempt – as an adult – to reconcile with his father and make sense of it all. Themes include loss, grief, regret, and shame.

But the movie is experimental. There are amazing scenes, gorgeous filmography, suggesting how the world began and a scene at the end that seems to depict an after-life where we reunite with our loved ones on a beach. There is not that much dialogue. Instead, there is a lot of whispering and interior monologue and a sound track grounded in religious music.

But this is what inspired me the most: I have never seen such realistic scenes, such patient scenes that show the roller-coaster of emotions that children experience. They are depicted in this film by the brilliant Terrence Malick not with dialogue, for the most part, but through the smallest, the tenderest of gestures and nuanced facial expressions.

As I watched, I thought how miraculous it would be to write scenes like those contained in the film and create the same kind of emotional impact but with words. A central character in my novel in progress is an 8-year-old boy who has lost people he loves. As I continue to revise, I plan to envision those scenes with the young brothers in The Tree of Life and see if I can capture some of that screen magic.

My favorite blog post of the week:

I love Justine Musk’s blog not only because it is always incredibly informative and well-written, but because she is so passionate about art and life. Her latest post was just what I needed. In it, she relates what Joyce Carol Oates said when asked at a conference what she would do today if she had to launch her writing career all over again.

She said, “I would blog.” She went on to say, “I would blog before I wrote a book.”

Justine then discusses how important blogging is to developing a voice, a voice that an audience can connect to, and how each blog post is another chance for the writer to practice, another opportunity for feedback.

Love a post that makes me feel inspired.

What post inspired you this week? Did a movie give you an idea for developing your story?

How Rejections Are Like Being On American Idol

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Confession: I have submitted stories for publication and received rejections.

Confession: I love American Idol.

As Emily Dickinson noted, hope is the thing with feathers. At least, that’s what I think my two confessions have in common.

I love American Idol because it is all about hope. Hope and courage and talent. Every season, thousands of young people attend auditions all over the country and the best are selected to compete. Once the season begins, so do the eliminations. Each week, the finalists sing their hearts out and each week one is sent home. In front of millions of people. Now that is serious rejection.

By contrast, when I get a rejection on a story, no one needs to know. I can file it, toss it, or try to forget about it. The humiliation is all mine alone. Still, there is pain.

But rejection does not have to end there. Once a finalist on American Idol is rejected, he or she may still go on to have a successful career. Jennifer Hudson won an Oscar after leaving American Idol in seventh place. Chris Daughtry recorded the fastest selling debut rock album in history after he was voted out in fourth place. They never gave up. They knew they could sing and they kept trying and they succeeded.

That’s the message I take from American Idol whenever I get a rejection. I submit my story again and I keep submitting until successful. I am certainly not saying that I can write as well as Jennifer Hudson and Chris Daughtry can sing, but I draw from them their passion for their art and their determination.

Another show that inspires me to stay with it is Britain’s Got Talent. It is very much like American Idol, but there are some differences. Britain’s Got Talent does not have age restrictions and it allows all kinds of talent. This can lead to interesting performances, to say the least.

(Does anyone – besides me – remember the Miss America finalist who, for her talent, demonstrated her skill in packing a suitcase?)

Anyway, we all remember Susan Boyle’s first appearance on Britain’s Got Talent. A plain, simple woman from the country, she had an amazing voice. It was jaw-dropping! This season we have Charlotte and Jonathan. Jonathan, who was bullied in school because of his weight and Charlotte, who never stopped believing in him. If you can watch this performance without shedding a tear, well, go for it!

What I love about Charlotte and Jonathan are not only their voices, but their loyalty to one another and their simple recognition of what’s really important. And that gets me back to my writing. Even in the face of rejection, I continually work to find my voice, to write what’s true. No one can stop me but me.

I am sure you all have someone or something that inspires you, keeps you going. Who or what is it? We’d all love to know!

Book Note

I recently finished reading Arcadia by Lauren Groff. I will admit that I wasn’t drawn to the book by its plot but I was totally pulled into it by the sheer beauty of the writing. You can land on any page of this book and see writing like this, a description of the boy, Bit, having a picnic with his parents, Abe and Hannah, during a difficult time in Arcadia:

Now they are together on a blanket spread under the copper beech, in the cool summer evening, and Bit feels the old happiness circling him, watches his mother’s hands flying like swallows to portion out the food, sees the way Abe looks at Hannah with his heart in his face.

This is the kind of writing that makes me want to write, that makes me wish that I could write just like this.